the big day....

All was the same with Adisyn at my appointments yesterday, which I'm trying to take as good news as I was able to go home. My fluid is still low - about the same as a week ago. Adisyn did perfect during the NST, which is great.

I had to see another OB since my midwife did not have any appointments. Again, this OB reminded me why I prefer midwives. If I never had to see an OB again, I'd be happy with that. Thursday I do go in for one more ultrasound to measure her fluids and one last NST.

I'll be 39 weeks on Friday, and the high risk OB recommended induction if I do not deliver before then. My induction is scheduled for Friday, January 15th. As much as I do not want to be induced I am actually more at peace having a date set. Of course I still hope she comes before then, but I had no idea I'd actually feel better having a date.

How ever it turns out we'll be holding our baby girl by Friday. I cannot wait to meet her and make sure she is okay.

emotional days....

This last week has been emotionally rough on me. I've been pretty with it during the day, but after Caden gets up from his nap I'm exhausted and on the verge of tears for the rest of the night. I want so badly to go into labor on my own and my fear is that I'll be induced this week if Adi does not come on her own before then.

I need to except what will be will be. It is all in God's hands and I should leave it there, yet I'm having such a hard time doing so. I'm filled with anxiety and fear of the what ifs and the unknown. Not to mention the change from our normal to another new normal. I just feel so overwhelmed and sad.

I was looking back at a previous entry of mine when I was 38/39 weeks with Caden and I was feeling the same way. I do actually feel a little better knowing I was having similar feelings ~ it must be some pregnancy-near the end-hormone kind of thing.

Since I'm not working right now, it's giving me extra time to think and let the anxiety get to me. I need to find something to keep my mind busy while I sit here on my bum drinking ounces and ounces of water.

Tomorrow I have another AFI & doppler ultrasound and then later in the afternoon is my NST followed by my 38 week prenatal appointment.

thursday appointment update

I'm posting an update which means I'm not in the hospital being induced, so I'm thankful for that.

The ultrasound today showed a slight increase of amniotic fluid from 6.2 to 7.something. Although I'm still in the low range it is not below 5, but I'll take it. The ultrasound tech did check the blood flow through the umbilical cord (even though I am going for a doppler ultrasound on Monday) and she said it was in the normal range. Yay! Adisyn did well during the NST. She was sleeping as soon as they hooked me up, so they gave me a juice box and that did the trick. Silly girl kept kicking off the belt around my belly.

My midwife called in sick today, so I had to to see one of the OBs in the office. She was okay, but reminded me why I switched from an OB to a midwife. As she was checking my dilation she explains she is going to sweep my membranes. I was so upset at first... that she would do this without asking me. However, she is aware I want to go into labor on my own and apparently sweeping your membranes has a 50/50 chance of helping that happen quicker.

Instead of bawling my eyes out (I felt violated! haha!) I am thankful that I was sent home and not to the hospital to be induced.

37 week appointment....

I did not enjoy the roller coaster ride I went on yesterday. Not. One. Bit.

My midwife and I went through the usual at my 37 week appointment yesterday. She asked if I thought Adisyn felt small. Um, I don't know ~ I can't really tell, but I do not feel that my stomach is as big as it was with Caden. I am carrying a girl this time and maybe differently?

I was still sent for an ultrasound to check the size of the baby and fluid. It turns out that my amniotic fluid is on the low end. Apparently 5 is low and I am at 6.2. Adisyn is also measuring small too. They are estimating that she only weighs 5lbs 2oz. I have never been comfortable with an ultrasound machine predicting this weight as they are often wrong by a pound or two.

They did a non stress test at the office and Adisyn was doing great! This is good. I was still sent to the hospital for another NST, so the high risk doctor could review and make a decision on whether or I should be induced. Again, Adi did great on the NST. The high risk doctor said that at 37 weeks there is no reason I need to be pregnant since I am full term. She also said there is no absolute reason I need to be induced either. I chose not to be induced as I just turned full term last Friday and I do worry about lung maturity. If I was 38 weeks along, I may have gone ahead with the induction although I'd rather go into labor on my own. I am still 1cm dilated and now 70% effaced. During my ultrasound they could not see Adi's face because she was so far down in my pelvis. This is all good signs that I will go into labor on my own.

I left the hospital under restrictions of getting lots of kick counting, rest and drinking additional fluids. I go back to the doctors on Thursday for another NST and fluid measurement by ultrasound. If my fluids are any lower, I'll be sent straight to the hospital to start the induction. Again, praying that is not the case and I go into labor on my own.

I've been taking it easy today. Resting, drinking water, eating, and cartoon watching with my little man. I'm taking all I can get with my last moments with just Caden and me while we pray for the health of little Adi.

caden repeats words.... and an update on my 36 weeks appointment

I can't believe it! I actually got Caden on video repeating words after me - one right after another. It's funny how you forget what words your little one knows once you have them on video asking them to say them.

Two things to note: When I ask him to say "uh-oh", he throws his sucker on the ground first. Also, he always says "boom" after spinning in circles and falling on his bum. I couldn't get him to say "boom", but he did spin in circles with a little dance to follow.



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Yesterday was my 36 week appointment with my midwife. BP and Adisyn's HB were great. I only gained 1lb in two weeks.

I'm dilated to 1cm and 50% effaced. I'm showing signs of progress two weeks earlier than I did with Caden, but it really doesn't mean anything. She said it was normal with your second baby and I could go earlier than my due date, but I could also go past January 22nd. Only time will tell, right?

My appointments are weekly until she arrives!

36 weeks pregnant:

34 week appointment

All went well with my 34 week appointment today. I even got a surprise ultrasound! There were no doctors around and the ultrasound tech had some time to spare, so she gave me a free lookie-see at our baby Adisyn. I can't believe how different the pictures are when you are farther along.

She is broken up in two different shots. The left side of the picture are her legs and you can see her foot and all five toes! The shot to the right is her side profile. Her face up against the uterine wall, so it is hard to see.



Overall my appointment went well. Adi's HB was ranging from the high 130's to the low 140's. BP was great and I only gained 1lb in two weeks!! So much better than the 7lbs I gained the two weeks prior.

My next visit is in two weeks and then I'm weekly with my appointments until she arrives. I will be full term on New Year's Day. I'm not expecting to go early, and hoping she stays put for at least a couple weeks in January. I cannot believe she'll be here soon! It feels like such a short time ago I tested and found out I was pregnant. Sheesh!

"32 week" appointment

Today was my 32 week appointment with my midwife.. although I am not technically 32 weeks until Friday nor did I see my midwife. I was expecting to see my current midwife, Debra, but I met my new midwife instead. Debra is retiring from delivering babies and found a replacement. I was so darn tired at my appointment today I can't remember her replacements name. Note to self - pay attention next time!

Overall I did like the new midwife. She was a little spunky with her red hair, stylish glasses and black combat boots. We talked about what to watch for as it relates to preterm labor, however, I have no concerns of that happening. I carried Caden until 2 days before his due date and hoping to come close with this one. I did advise her I have no interest of being induced unless of course it is medically necessary. She felt the same as I thought she would. I did, however, tell her that I would ask for an epidural. She feels pretty strongly that I can do without, but will go with whatever I ask.

My BP was 122/80 and Adi's HB was ranging in the 120s-130s. I think she was sleeping again. The midwife was happy with both. Now let's talk about my weight gain. "Holy weight gain!". That is not something you want to hear from your midwife, but that is what I heard. 7 lbs in 2 weeks! Since my eating habits have not changed she really believes it is water weight and will continue to watch it.

Other than my weight gain the appointment went well. I go back in 2 1/2 weeks and then it is weekly appointments after that.

31 weeks and 19 months...

31 weeks....

Only 9 or so more weeks until little Adisyn arrives. Wow. Just wow. I know this last 9 weeks are just going to fly by between Thanksgiving, Christmas and the New Year. I’ll actually be full term come my birthday, January 2nd. I am not expecting Adisyn to arrive that early, but you never know. My guess is actually January 17th. Caden was born on April 17th, so I’m thinking she should arrive on the 17th too… seeing how 17 is my favorite number and all.

I’m really starting feel the exhaustion of the 3rd trimester. I do feel pretty good in the morning, which is when I try to be the most productive. Come lunch time I’m ready to crash although I just can’t sleep no matter how long I lay there. I’m sure once Adi is here I’ll have no problem taking naps. Fingers crossed she’ll snooze when Caden naps.

Speaking of sleep this weekend would have been a great for napping since my lil man is Mr. Sleepyhead. Thursday night Caden slept 13 hours. He has never slept straight through past 8am. He then took an almost 4 hour nap! Although he didn’t sleep as long the next night he did on Saturday night until this morning; 12 hours! He must be going through a growth spurt. Instead of Caden waking me up this morning it was the dog. Only the dog faked me out. She whined at me to get out of bed and I assumed she had to go outside. Nope. She wanted my spot in bed. Rotten little girl.

I woke Caden up on Saturday just before he hit the 4 hour mark. Doesn't he look like he could have slept another 2 hours?!



This morning (after my dog kicked me out of bed) Caden woke up shortly after I came downstairs. He talked for a few and then was quiet. It turns out he was working hard to take his socks off. Apparently this little man does NOT want to wear socks. He’ll pretend to put them on, but you if try and help WATCH OUT! Like my mom said, one day I’ll walk into his room and he’ll have taken off every article of clothing including his diaper. Fun times.

He tries so hard to get his socks back on....

Our lil man turned 19 months last week. Despite the tantrums I do really love this age. He understands simple directions and can communicate what he wants/needs to some extent. He is saying new things every week. I will forever be amazed at how quickly babies grow up.

Caden is currently stuck on “hi” and “bye” although he does not wave. I’ve been waiting for this boy to wave for 10 months now and I’m finally giving up. He says “hi” and “bye” to everything. Actually, everything is a phone to him. Anything from a banana, to a spoon, the end of the plug to my blow dryer, the heating pad setting, the cords to the blinds, to a magnet on the fridge is his phone.

I couldn't get an exact picture of his ear on the heating pad remote, since he is such a squirmer but here he is saying "hi".

19 Month Milestones

Most toddlers should be able to . . .
Feed self with spoon and fork - Yes
Run well - Yes
Brush teeth with help - Yes
String more words together to make phrases or puts together pairs of words - He continues to try

Some toddlers will probably be able to . . .
Know when something is wrong - Yes
Say 20 to 50 words - No
Form recognizable sentences (two or three words) - only "thank you", but we are not hearing this as often anymore
Take off clothes - Just his socks (see above post)

Some toddlers could possibly be able to . . .
May show signs of bladder control - No
Brush teeth and washes hands without help - No
Draw better circles and straighter lines - No
Name several part of his or her body - No, but he will point to his body parts when asked where they are

Perfect Appointment

Today was my 30 week appointment, although I'm not 30 weeks until Friday. It was an uneventful appointment which is great! My BP was 104/80 - perfect! Adi's heartbeat was 148 bpm - perfect! I passed by glucose test - perfect! I'm measuring on time - perfect! I gained 5lbs in 4 weeks - not so perfect.

My appointments are now every 2 weeks until I hit 36 weeks and then it's every week until she is here. I cannot believe how fast this has gone by. Yikes!

happy halloween and more!

Happy Halloween! Isn't my little turtle just adorable?! It was Caden's first year trick-or-treating. He did so great and we are so proud of him. We took him over to Ryan's brother's house for an evening of fun. We made it all the way around the block and probably would have kept going, but Mommy and Daddy were cold. Caden held his bag and a few times said "tank you" even if it was after we walked down the driveway.

I cannot believe how much our lil man has changed since last Halloween.

6 months old....

1 year later at 18 months old...



Caden's cousins just love him to pieces. It's quite wonderful to watch them together. Although I couldn't manage to get a photo of the three of them, I was able to get Ethan and Christian together.

Off to start trick or treating with Daddy and Mommy trailing behind..

With falling back an hour after Halloween it felt a little out of place going out while it was still light outside. I did enjoy it much better as you could actually see the kids Halloween costumes. We did have a fun filled evening and Mommy and Daddy now have bag of candy to enjoy :)

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Friday was the start of my 28th week - 7 months and the start of my 3rd trimester. I cannot believe I'm in my last trimester and Adisyn will be here in 12 weeks. It's amazing how fast this pregnancy has gone by. It does make me sad that this will most likely be my last pregnancy. It was a rough go in the beginning with all the morning sickness, but I'm trying to enjoy every last minute of it. I would love to have a third child, but with costs of having a child it is just not in the books for us. Unless of course we win the lottery!

I've been feeling pretty good except for some lower front abdominal pressure that landed me in labor and delivery last Tuesday to get checked out. Everything turned out just fine, thankfully. The doctor believes the baby could have been laying in an awkward spot or most likely that I did not drink enough fluids. I'm keeping water with me at ALL times now.

I'm really looking forward to meeting our little girl in January. She is going to be just perfect.

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On a final note - Happy birthday to my wonderful and amazing husband! I love him so VERY much and I am so grateful for him. I hope he is enjoying his day of golf out with his buddies. It turned out to be a nicer day - even though it's still a little cool.

25th Week Prenatal Appt & My Self Feeder

I had my 25th week prenatal appointment today. It was pretty uneventful, which is a good thing. Adisyn's HB was 138 bmp. My midwife said she was probably sleeping. I've gained about 5-6lbs in the last month, which I'm not to happy about, however, my midwife said not to worry. I've gained a total of 25lbs so far. With Caden at 25 weeks I was up 21lbs, so I'm not that far off. I can't believe little Adi will be here in just 15 weeks or so. It's going to fly by!

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On another note - look who is continuing to feed himself! He is getting SO good at it even if his choice of foods are limited. The only food he will currently eat consists of cereal, grilled cheese, Gerber Graduates ravioli, chicken nuggets, apples, applesauce, and crackers. *sigh* Hopefully this doesn't last forever.








While I am excited for Caden to use more words I just love his "baby talk". My dad heard Caden over the phone talking like this and I'm hoping he'll be able to see this video :)

Where does the time go?

*sob, sob* I miss my mom. We had such a nice relaxing visit, and I'm so sad she is already gone home. That week went by so fast. Heck, the last two weeks went by to fast. Time in general goes by way to fast. I wish I could pause time whenever I felt like it. Wouldn't that be nice?

Unfortunately, it rained EVERY day my mom was here. It kept us inside most days, but we did make it to the cider mill (a quick trip in and out) and we also visited my grandpa. He is doing so well and all the old folks just love seeing Caden. Surprisingly Caden was giving this nice old man high fives. He was the only person Caden did not shy away from at my grandpa's assisted living place. Grandpa is doing well, which is always nice to see.

Caden learned a LOT while my mom was in town. I believe I mentioned in my last post how he will point to some of his body parts. He has most of them down pat. He is also starting to talk more. The other day I handed him his binkie and he says "tank you". Ryan and I always say "thank you" when he brings us/hands us something. We've also heard him say "stop that", "get out" and "mine". I'm not sure if he really knows he saying it or even trying, but he might be. Tammy, Caden's sitter said he pointed to a diaper laying on the floor and said "diaper" twice in a row.

Where has the time gone? How did he grow up so quickly?

Grandma and Caden pretending to cook and serve.



Trying to get Caden to sit still and pay attention during a photo shoot is nearly impossible these days.



but then I caught him - even if he wasn't smiling.



My friend Nina stopped over while my mom was in town for a visit. She brought her 7 month old, baby Nina too! I can't believe Nina is 7 months old. It seems like just yesterday I witnessed her birth.





I'm not sure how good you can see Caden's expression in this picture, but if you look really close you can see he is not about sharing his book with baby Nina.



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I'm 25 weeks pregnant. Only 15 more weeks to go until little Adi arrives. Where or where has this pregnancy gone? I can't believe it. I'm finally starting to get somethings organized and making room for her. I cleaned out Caden's closet and packed all his summer clothes away. It made me so sad that he will never wear them again. We will be tackling the basement this weekend and sorting through all the baby gear. I'll probably get all sappy and sad or possibly a little anxious as well.

As for how I'm feeling.... I'm T-I-R-E-D. My body is aching and I'm just exhausted. It's a lot harder this time around when you are chasing around a very active toddler. When I was pregnant with Caden I could nap as I pleased... at least that is what Ryan told me I did. I don't remember all that clearly. I'm not complaining though. We feel very blessed to be pregnant again with a healthy baby girl. God is very good to us.

23 Weeks Pregnant

I am finally getting to a stage in my pregnancy where I actually like being pregnant. Of course, minus all the bathroom breaks, restless sleeping, and aching feet. Those are just minor inconveniences. In general I do like being pregnant. My stomach has popped where people are making comments such as, "So you ARE pregnant. I wasn't sure and didn't want to say anything"... Well, thanks I appreciate that.

I don't feel as though my stomach is as round as when I carried Caden. It feels more all over than anything, but definitely out there. It could be the extra "layer" from Caden or because I'm carrying different who knows.

Over the last week Adisyn has become more and more active. Or maybe it's just that I feel her more now that she is bigger. I LOVE the feeling of a baby moving around inside. It's always a reassuring moment every time I feel a little jab, kick or roll.

I am really trying to eat healthier than I have been. I will have to admit that it has been really hard. This girl is making me crave cookies and ice cream like it's going out of style. I am trying to keep in mind the weight I'll be battling postpartum if I don't quit before it's too late.

January seems so close, but yet so far. I am very anxious to meet Adi but for now I am very content with her growing inside me.

1/2 way there and my fussy butt eater...

20 weeks pregnant. Yikes. Half way there... well, I'm 21 weeks now so it's even closer. Where has the time gone? January feels so close now that fall is approaching. I had my midwife appointment on Monday and all went well. She said Adisyn is measuring just perfectly from the ultrasound pictures and my belly is measuring on time as well. The only downfall is that I've gained 19lbs so far. That is up 7lbs from how much I gained with Caden this far along. Double yikes! She subtly told me to lay off the carbs. I'm going to do my best.

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I feel like there is so much to update on my lil man. We've continued having our challenging week with falling asleep without crying, but night 7 and 8 were a success! Let's hope we don't have to do this again. He has become a fussy eater these days. He went through this phase not too long ago and he's back at it. I've decided to accept it and give up being frustrated. Toddlers go through this phase and he will grow out of it... somewhat I hope!

Here he is when he LOVED to eat... scraping the bowl for any bites of raspberries he had left.


while his bestest friend took her favorite spot in the house...

If he will eat, he must do it on his own! When did he grow up so quickly?!

Caden brought Mommy some "dishes" to wash after dinner...

This face just melts my heart. I just love him to itty bitty pieces.

I love this boy

How could I not love this boy?! I can't. He is simply irresistible, and for all these reasons and more:

He loves his "doggy" and cuddles her non stop...

because he tries to be a big boy and sit on the arm of the couch....

because he is silly.....

because he is sweet and innocent...

and so peaceful when he is sleeping..

he loves to be outside and just be a boy...

because he hides behind the table and plays with the blinds (even though he knows he is not allowed)...

and because I find his toys in places they shouldn't be...

because he is beautiful....

I love this little boy of my mine.

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On a "milestone" note - look who is not afraid of the spoon!

He has been taking bites here and there from his cereal, but at grandma's house this weekend he started feeding himself applesauce. We were so proud of him, but what a mess! I guess he has to learn even if that means flinging food all over. Thanks to Mia for being our mop!

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20 weeks.... this marks half way through my pregnancy. I can't believe how fast it is going this time around. Last night Ryan was able to feel Adisyn bouncing around for the first time. She didn't hide from her Daddy like Caden used to.

While I can't wait to meet little Adi, I am not anxious to give birth just yet. I am happily enjoying this pregnancy as this will be our last.

Our little girl has a name....

Ryan and I have finally agreed to a name for our little girl. We both LOVE the name we chose just as much as when we chose Caden.
Her name will be......

Adisyn Emily

I imagine we will most likely call her Adi when she is little, but when she grows up she will have a more "grown up" and sophisticated name.
A few other names we had on our list:

Kendall
Rylie
Isabel
Kayla

If Caden was a girl, we were going to name him Madison Emily. (Emily is my late grandmother's middle name) I love Madison, but I do hear that name quite a bit. I am hoping to avoid my child in a classroom with 5 other children with their name. It may still happen anyway. Caden is becoming very popular and I know Adisyn is not in the dark. Adisyn is so close to Madison and when I brought it up to Ryan he really liked it. We slept on it overnight and fell in love with her name even more. I couldn't be more excited.

We are having a .........

GIRL!!!!

Today was the big day. We had our 18 week ultrasound. At first the tech was having a hard time seeing "in between" and she finally got a good shot. My gut was telling me a girl, although it wasn't as strong as when I was pregnant with Caden. Either way, I knew :)

Her HB was at 148 bpm. Last week at my prenatal appointment her HB was 152 bpm. The tech did say she looked great. She took a LOT of pictures. She did get a few 3D pictures, but the baby started turning around with her back to us. I think she may be camera shy.

We have a few names in mind, but still have not made a decision.

So there you have it. A girl :)

4 Months Pregnant

I cannot believe I am already 4 months pregnant. It is going by so fast this time around. I know it is still summer, but January seems right around the corner, and once the holidays get here it is going to go even quicker.

We should find out the gender within 2 weeks or so. I have a routine appointment scheduled on August 19th and then I'll make my appointment for the big ultrasound after that. I am hoping to get in the following week. Based on the old wives tales all signs point to having a girl, but we shall see.

A few differences between my pregnancy with Caden and this one-

~loved grapefruit with Caden - cannot stand the taste of them now
~could not eat Mexican food with Caden - love Mexican (especially tacos) with this one
~felt presentable with Caden - feel like I look just awful this time around (old wives tale points to girl on this one)
~nauseous from 6-8 weeks with Caden - STILL nauseous (but randomly) at 16 weeks!

Here is a comparison belly shot when I was 16 weeks with Caden and now 16 weeks with baby #2 - not much of a difference except I have an extra layer of padding from Caden.

Happy 15 Months (& prenatal appointment)

Today marks 15 months old and 13 weeks for his brother or sister. Today is also the first day of of my second trimester.

It's hard to imagine that we have a 15 month old and another on the way. As always Caden is just a joy and we are so proud and blessed that God chose us to be his parents. He continues to be an active little boy. Always on the go and always getting into something. His new word these days is cookie, but he doesn't say it all that clear. He gets the C and kie... He will actually go over to the cupboard with his cookies and reach up saying "c-kie" I WILL be getting that on video this weekend. It's so stinkin cute.

Over the last few months Caden's separation anxiety from me has gone from crying hysterical to crying for a few seconds. This typically happens when I drop him off in the morning before work. By the time I reach the door or sometimes my car he has already stopped. I feel so much better knowing that. He does give the best cuddles before I leave though. I get as many as I can before I have to leave for work.

We are still on two naps a day. He generally takes a longer morning nap and usually an hour nap in the late afternoon. Occasionally he won't fall asleep in the late afternoon and sometimes it makes for a rough night.

I was hoping we would get Caden in the pool more often this summer, but the weather has been pretty cool. Most mornings I am driving to work with my heat on and it's mid July! It's ridiculous!

Time for some pictures and milestone progress:

Most babies should be able to . . .
Toddle well - Yes
Say up to five words - Mama, Doggy, Kitty, Cookie - okay, so he is one short. No big deal.
Climb stairs - Yes, but with Mommy or Daddy right behind him
Like to look at books and turn pages - Yes
Laugh at funny things - All the time

Some babies will probably be able to . . .
Walk well or runs - Yes
Draw lines - Hmmm, not sure we have tried this
Say no and shakes head - Just shakes his head no
Like to sing - I'm not sure he actually sings, but he could be and I just don't know it
Follow simple directions - Yes

Some babies could possibly be able to . . .
Walk up stairs - No
Want to help around the house - Haha! No!
Remember caregiver and separation anxiety lessens - We are getting there
Respond to verbal requests without signals of any type - Yes

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I had my monthly routine prenatal appointment today. I've gained 1lb in 3 weeks and a total of 11lbs during my first trimester. Not too bad, but I've gained 5 more lbs than I did with my first trimester with Caden. With Caden I was 136lbs and now I am 148lbs. Yikes.

This little bugger was hiding again and I almost thought we would hear the baby's heartbeat. It turns out this baby is really low in my abdomen and we did eventually hear the most amazing sound in the world. The baby's HB was 158 - nice and strong. I go back a month from today.

Surprise!

Ryan and I have had a little secret for some weeks now, and I’ve wanting to blog about it but that would have ruined our secret! I’m starting this post and when the cat is out of the bag, I’ll post it.

We are expecting #2! This took us by surprise, but we couldn’t be happier. We were only off by 5 months when we wanted to try again. What’s five months in the big picture anyway? I’m due January 25th, based on when I believe I ovulated or January 22nd based on my last cycle. An Aquarius baby. I guess I’d rather go with the earlier due date. So, January 22nd it is.

When my HPT was positive I almost fainted at first. I was more worried about what Ryan would say, so I waited a day or two before I told him. I knew Ryan’s first thought would be our home and the living space. We live in a two bedroom townhouse, which is already starting to get a little cramped. We have put our condo up for sale, but if that falls through we will manage. At least we have a roof over our heads. I was right about Ryan’s first concern. I know him too well. It didn’t take him too long to get past that he was actually really excited. I was so relieved.

This pregnancy is a little more intense than Caden’s so far. I’m just as exhausted as I was with Caden, but I’m having aversions to most foods. Maybe it’s not aversions – I’m just SICK to my stomach majority of the day. Nothing sounds good to eat and every time I do eat I feel sick afterwards. If I’m not feeling sick in the morning then it will happen in the late afternoon early evening. It doesn’t seem to go away until I’m in bed and then I’m starving! Of course.

I’m seeing a midwife this time around and I couldn’t be happier with my choice. I’ve already had an interview with her and I just love her. One problem though. She is looking to retire from delivery babies before this one is due. Boo. She said she has another midwife in mind that she is hoping will join the practice and take over.

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I haven’t come back to writing about pregnancy #2, and now the beans have been spilled! I am 11 weeks pregnant as of this posting date. I had my first check up with my doctor on June 24th. It was the regular routine; pee in cup, get weighed, check uterus visit. Unfortunately, we were not able to hear the heartbeat (HB), which I know the chances are slim this early. Either way, I still wanted confirmation. I needed to know that everything was okay before I told everyone. I asked for an ultrasound and she had no problem with my request.

I had my ultrasound on June 29th. I saw our tiny little baby. So perfect. The baby was squirming and kicking his/her legs. The baby’s HB was 158 bpm. He/she was measuring exactly to the day confirming my due date of January 22nd.

January seems so far away. Summer just started and in a way it’s almost over. Summers in Michigan are just too short. Knowing this will be my last pregnancy on top of not being completely ready for another child, I do not wish this time to go by fast. I’m sure my thoughts will change when I’m 30+ weeks. I’ll be ready by then I’m sure.

We are just taking one day at time for now. Living life as usual and enjoying our son, Caden.